New Phase

I haven't blogged in awhile but today I just wanted to share some thoughts.  I am near mid-thirties and I am getting ready to plan my first wedding.  As exciting as all of this is, I want to remember to focus on my upcoming marriage and what it means to us.

I may be presumptuous but I think he felt giving me the ring was a big deal to me.  He had spoke of doing it years ago so for my birthday weekend last month he finally fulfilled that promise. To be honest with you the ring is beautiful and to my liking but its not what excites me.  I have already misplaced it a couple of times (albeit in the house) and I have come to realize it is a material object. It is special to me because it symbolizes something greater which is my bond with him.

So many women get excited about the ring, the celebrations and ceremony to follow, but at this point I am excited to be with someone that I know is willing to be my partner in life. I have seen several marriages fail including my parents, so to know that someone is willing to stay and fight for the relationship to work means a lot to me. To have a partner  that will take the good with the bad and keep us rolling is essential.

I am not going to go into the good, the bad and the ugly of our relationship but I will say that it wasn't a fairy tale that got us here, but it feels so good to be here.  Let's be honest I don't know how I will pull this lovely affair together. I don't know where the funds will be coming from. I don't know what the weather will be.  I don't know if at that time all my loved ones will be in good health.  Hell, I don't even know if we will really be together till death do us part, but I do know my chances are good :-)

-KD